farewell!

Okay everyone.
well 7 of you who actually read this.
my blog has become crazy! and ugly. dont ask how the heck that background came up i have no idea. after hours of trying to fix it i gave up and just created a new blog.
so anytime you would like to see what i am up to check back here.....

http://nicnakpattywack.blogspot.com/

i will be updating this one as much as possible.
see you soon!

Need a laugh?

Presenting:The Sound of Music, The Remix.

Courtesy of the love of my life.

Pumpkin Patch.

Oh, Life.

Today I quit college.

For the second time.

Now hold on..before you go rolling your eyes and calling me a quitter...let me please explain first:

I've been absolutely consumed with stress over the past few months about what on earth I'm going to do with my life, and once i do decide, how I will possibly have the money to do that...where I will live, where the money to support myself will come from, if i should look for a job that will pay me a larger amount of money so i can do such things...yadi yadi yada. Basically a bunch of tough life decisions have been consuming my every thought and weighing me down mentally and physically. After so many prayers, and asking for prayer I think God has shown me my next step. I'm currently living with my best friends family and I can't tell you how thankful I am for it, most people wouldn't just open their home and to find a family that did no questions asked is a true blessing. But no matter how welcome I am, I just feel like in order for me to really start my own life I need to work on saving enough money to find a true home for myself.Whether it be an apartment with my sister or a friend, I need a place I can finally drop my anchor and truly feel at home. And once I am financially able to do that I feel like it will be so much easier to completely focus on my next step in life scholastically. I have every intention of going back to school but I feel so heavily in my heart I need to conquer this first. I've spent too much time feeling disheveled and left behind and I'm done with that. The truth is I chose to stay here and no matter how lonely it feels it was still my choice. So i need to get moving and start creating my life. One thing at a time, just like my dad said. I'm so thankful that God has finally given me some sort of direction. I'm learning to really trust him lately.
He is so good. And he is for me. And there is a plan for my life. And it is GOOD.




(behold the face of a happy [temporary] college drop out)

Sigh.

Missing my home today.

(and every other day, for that matter)

Missing my room.
Missing my family.
Missing my dog.
Missing having mom around to talk to when I need mom advice.
Or to laugh with about my weird life.
Or for a hug.
I miss watching real housewives with her and her constant comments on how dumb they all are.
Missing mom period.
Missing my dad.
Missing seeing him at the other side of the dinner table.
I miss how he always greeted me with "Hey Nic ".
I love his voicemails cause he always starts out with "Hey nic, it's dad".
Makes me miss when that used to happen in person.
I miss dinner time.
I miss when all six of us were at the dinner table.
I miss dinner foods.
Missing hearing something going on in the back yard cause mom and dad were ALWAYS planting SOMETHING.
Missing my brother and his crazy friends always being obnoxiously loud running around everywhere.
Missing my brother.
He is most like me. We just kinda get each other.
Now he has a girlfriend and i'm missing out on seeing that.
Missing using brittanys old room to paint in whenever I want.
I miss brittany. So much. She's like my heart and soul.
Im so glad I have Marissa here. Don't know what I'd do if she was gone too.
I miss painting.
I miss having money to buy paint supplies.
I miss having money to buy clothes.
I miss buying clothes.
I miss walking into my house at 3am trying to not wake up my parents but without fail the front door would squeak every time.
I miss how my mom decorated the house for the holidays.
I miss having to beg my dad to PLEASE put up the christmas lights this year.
I miss the holidays with family.
Don't really know how Im gonna do Thanksgiving this year.
I miss feeling comfortable.
I miss feeling like i actually belong somewhere other than my car.
I miss feeling I had some sort of place in the world.
I just miss everything.

DIY Thursday!

I love jars.

Old jars. New jars. You name it. I got 'em.
I use jars for tons of things including decoration, but a few of the jars in my hoard were not being used for anything yet and were just looking quite plain.
Sad.
I don't like plain...I like cute!
Today after school I was feeling extra creative and decided it was time for a new project.
30 minutes later I created my new little family of jars...



Here's a quick picture tutorial
[just in case you like the idea]
on how I made my jars a little more cute-sy...

Okay just in case you work better reading directions, here's the breakdown:

1. Choose some fabric, cut into strips and make your rosette.
2. Join me in my cheap ghetto-fabulousness and cut small pieces from your old/used bath scrunchies.
3. Sew each piece to the back of the rosette. (Don't kill yourself trying to find matching thread because no one will see the stitches...hence I used my unloved forest green thread)
4. Cut 3 long pieces of twine/ thread/ whatevs you want and braid or twist together.
5. Staple your long piece of braided thread to your rosette. Or if you don't have a trusty staple gun GET ONE...just kidding. A needle and thread work perfectly fine as well.
6. Finally tie your cute new accessory around the neck of your jar.
   

AND.......WAHH-LAAAA! JAR BEAUTIES!

[If you DO want to cute-sy up your own jars but don't know how to make the rosette click the link below to watch a YouTube tutorial.Just watch the first part and she will teach how to make the actual fabric rosette. ]

http://youtu.be/oBHQ4Z6eO2U

Happy Beautifying!

Barf Homework.

My art class this semester is frustrating. We draw shoes. We also draw various tools you would find in your fathers toolbox. It's just...not......fun. You know? I want to be creatively challenged! So naturally I find myself drawing everything else besides my assigned homework.
Which was,wait for it....SHOES. Didn't see that coming.
So I drew this instead. It's not finished and of course I still hate like 1,000 things about it. But it's more exciting than posting a picture of shoes.
You're welcome.Happy Sunday Loves!
Make it a good one.
I'm going outside to enjoy the beautiful weather, drink a latte, and kiss my boyfriend.