I have become stagnant, lazy, stuck.I have allowed closed doors to cause me to stand still. I have 3 paintings, started but unfinished.I have (another) job I can't stand and unfortunately none of the detestation I have for it has become a motivating factor to actually try to get another one. I have a messy room that I tried to clean like 2 weeks ago but some how it's STILL messy. A messy car, that's been messy...well...practically ever since I started driving it (my bathroom is actually clean though....I know, go me). I'm irritated because I think my life is boring and cluttered and slow right now but in reality it's my own fault because I'm too lazy to do anything to help myself. Last night a friend suggested I set myself "goals" for every month. I hate goals. I think they are stupid. But maybe I am the one who is being stupid so I am going to give his suggestion a try. I still really don't like the term "goals"...it reminds me too much of school so I settle with a to-do list (it sounds much more practical than goals, and I feel it will still get the job done).
I want to start out the new year with a fresh start and fresh motivation. It's time I stop waiting to "start my life" and just begin somewhere.
By the end of December I want to:
- Finish at least 2 of the unfinished paintings.
- Keep a clean room and car in order to keep me clear headed and uncluttered.
- Apply for at least 3 new jobs.
- Save $200 dollars.
- Visit one inspiring place a week. (creativity is lacking lately)
- Buy a new book and actually begin to read it.
- Remember to breath, and to laugh, and to smile every single day.
